The most stupidest thing happened. It seemed that I forgot my email address to my own blog site to get in. Theres alot on my mind, so sometimes I forget the important details.
Anyhow, today I want to tell you about myself. My name is Willow. I am a 23 yr old woman. I grew up in a very conservative household where talking about sex was considered taboo. My family is a bunch of upstanding people in the community who indoctrinated the same principals n values in my siblings and I. Our family is a very church going family. They were uptight about any topics we might have wanted to discuss. We grew up believing that Black people were lower than us, like bottom of the food change lower. We had servants whom my family treated liked dirt (apartheid times) and to an extent I grew up believing that as well. Basically my family is racist. Black men were viewed as thugs, good for nothings. Black men were a taboo. No one in our community would think otherwise.
Anyway as I saying my family is conservative. What I learned about sex I learned from school and novels. They never spoke about it or mentioned the mechanics of it. Even as an adult, I have only had one serious relationship with a white boy whom I had given my virginity to and that was after two years of dating at the age of 20. Sexually my experience was only limited to one person. My white ex-boyfriend, whom I met in university. He was also spiritual like my family. Although we had a sex life, we didn’t do a lot of adventurous sexual stuff. We did oral on occasion but he didn’t like to do foreplay for very long. We never did any anal stuff. He wasn’t into it. All he loved to do is kiss and do the missionary position always. Never any other positions, just that. It wasn’t long before I got bored with him sexually.
I lived in a dormitory where my roommates exposed me to pornography. My knowledge of sex grew and I was exposed to the different types of pornography you get. I watched one on ones, white on white, gangbangs and finally interracial sex. It was so different watching something so taboo. I loved the contrast. And then the final nail in the coffin hit, BDSM where I watched a white woman dominated by a Big Black Man and his Black friends. I loved the helplessness, the bondage, the spankings, and the rough use of her body. It was fascinating watching this white woman give up control to a group of Black Men. It fascinated me to such an extent that I wanted to be that white woman amidst those Black Men. I then began to research BDSM, learn everything I could. I realized I had a submissive streak in me. The harder the BDSM, the more it fascinated me. I loved watching anything with spankings to bondage to gangbangs. Unfortunately the Internet has ton of stuff on interracial sex and gangbangs but not a lot of domination stuff between the two races.
My obsession grew to such a stage that I could not dream of a Black Cock entering my pussy, making me its bitch. I used to masturbate to being dominated, spanked. And not just light BDSM, I wanted the will or power taken away from me. Where I’m just an object to be used and abused only and that too by a Black Master. I wanted to be stripped of my pride to the point where I only serve Black Cocks.
After graduating university with a degree in Microbiology, I was offered a job in a prestigious laboratory. After a year working in my field, I could no longer ignore my body’s cravings. My body yearned for a Strong Black Dom. I couldn’t work any longer without my fantasies affecting my work. I was making errors and mistakes. My mind was unfocused. My fantasies started becoming a reality at my work place. I was dreaming of Black Men. I would walk pass the Black janitor and fantasize about being bent over his cart, and fucked by his Black Cock. Then I fantasized about getting caught by the Black security guard and I would be forced to suck his Black Cock while the Janitor fucked me from behind. Then the Black Security Guard would then call the other Black security guards with his walkie talkie. When they would arrive (about 5 of them), I would be stripped naked and made to suck their Black Cocks. They would call me Slut for liking this so much. They would touch my breasts, pinch my nipples, and slap my ass. They would bend me over till my ass and pussy was in the air and my head on the floor. Spread my legs wide and hold my head down with their feet. I would feel their fingers on my sopping wet pussy fucking me, fingers inside my ass. I would moan and raise my ass higher for more. They would laugh and make derogatory comments. They would then use me. Fuck me with their cocks while one fucked my mouth. After a while they would double penetrate me and fuck all three of my holes while I gave hand jobs as well. One would cum in my pussy, one my ass and one in my mouth where I was made to swallow. And then they would start again.
Another of my favourite fantasies were I repeatedly spilled something on just a recently cleaned floor and the Black janitor told me that I was going to pay for it. He takes me to the Black security guard to report my infraction. The security guard tells me that I need to be punished or he’s going to report me to their superior. I agree. We arrive at his superiors office who also turns out to be a Black Man. He then tells me since I’ve been naughty girl, both the janitor and himself will spank me on the bare bottom. He then proceeded to tell me to remove my skirt and panties. First an over the knee spanking, 20 smacks from each man on each cheek, then I will be restrained and given 30 strokes with their belts on my bare ass.
After they would be done, they I would thank them by sucking them off and swallowing their cum.
I would come many times with these fantasies at the work place. I was constantly wet. I yearned for a total power exchange 24/7 relationship. I yearned for humiliation, dehumanization, discipline, and servitude, to be an object for a Black Master to use, to be an extreme pain slut. I wanted to test my limits and for that to happen I needed to find a Man who had sufficient experience in BDSM.
Thus began my search for A Black Master. But more of that next time.
